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  • Entries from the middle: March

    Authors Note:  I almost didn’t share this.It feels unfinished. Messy. A little too close to the surface. These are entries written across a few weeks. Captured as they happened, without much editing or distance.…

  • Irreversible

    The scariest thing about change is that it’s irreversible. You probably read that twice. Or maybe a handful of times. Or even just stared at it and spiralled, if you’re anything like me. My…

  • I See Her. I See Me.

    Okay. I’m going to say it. The term grief is weird. An umbrella term to describe a complex mix of emotions that come with losing something or someone – because it’s not just sadness…

  • If I’m Not Sad

    I’m currently going through a period of big change in my life and with it there’s a quiet hope – a hope for happiness. Which is weird. Because I don’t know who I am…

  • Surviving Built This Life

    My drive home today was a metaphor. Not something beautiful but… Bittersweet. One of those metaphors where people say the end is always worth it, where the goal is worth the struggle, worth the…

  • Altitude

    I climbed a mountain today.There was no view waiting for me.There was no relief when I reached the top.Instead I asked,What now? Now. I feel stuck here.There’s no way down.There’s only up.Still. I thought…

  • Allowed

    Today I did something scary. I admitted to a friend I wanted to be a writer. And here I am admitting it again. It’s a big day for becoming Lucy.  When I admitted it,…

  • On Wanting to Be Seen

    Lately I’ve been noticing my patterns and how I respond to certain things, specifically around being supported and being seen. I crave being seen. It has taken a lot of internal work to realise…

  • Seconds

    I burnt myself in the shower today.Not by accident.I got in and turned it up.Slowly.Gradually.It got to the perfect temperature.Then I asked what if I kept going,so I did.When the water touched me next,I…