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  • Dear Diary, I have nothing to say…

    Dear Diary, It’s cold today. I don’t feel as though I have much to say. It has been an average Saturday. Storm Amy wasn’t as bad as they made out it was going to be (at least not where I am, I hope everyone else is safe and well) so I managed to get out…

  • My Brain Feels Heavy

    I have thoughts. Don’t we all? Ha. No. I mean, so many. So many thoughts that I can’t hear them or see them or make sense of them. The overwhelm is too much. I want to feel. I want something to bring me joy, to feel a surge of, I’m presuming dopamine is what my…

  • Rediscovering The Emo Girl I Buried

    I listen to music. A lot of music. You will find me with headphones on 75% of the time, which doesn’t sound much but I am a mother first, so when I’m looking after my boys, I can’t wear my headphones (I wish). But honestly, even when I’m with my boys, we have music in…

  • The Clouds Gave Me An Existential Crisis

    In September I took a train, I saw a cloud and it caused words to fall out of me, which then of course made me freak out. These are the words that left me: “Clouds floating by themselves, is that just what 20s are – the loneliness. Surrounded by other clouds but literally in the…

  • The Window

    I can see in. I can feel everything. But I can’t reach you. I can’t help you. Let me help you. Let me carry this for you. Won’t you let me? You will let me. But I can’t reach you. I’m watching from the other side. Can you see me? Can you hear me? Can…