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So this week I wrote about not really being ready for the end of the year or ready to close that chapter of my life yet – how I feel like I’m still searching for something else but having no idea what it is I’m searching for. I’m still clueless sadly. This won’t be a…
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Recently I have been lost – feeling alone, numb, quiet, tired. Protecting myself (I think) from processing, from truly feeling my emotions. I’m not sure what gave me the push to process again or when and why I suddenly felt safe enough to do so but this week was that turning point. Thank god. I…
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I haven’t written for a while again. I’ve been ill (again, woohoo) and I’ve also been super busy. I’ve been reflecting on some of my writing though, and I can’t help but think I take a step forward, then two steps back. I seem to have these big revelations as I write, or seem to…
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I was thinking I’m not really in my feels lately, and that’s why I can’t write anything decent.But then I thought, what if I’m just happy? But I’m not even sure I know what happiness feels like.Which is such a weird thing to admit, isn’t it? Surely I should know what it feels like? When…
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Hi Me, Today was boring. You know I keep wanting to say my life is boring but it isn’t – it’s ordinary. I say boring because it’s not filled with loads of activities, news or gossip like you see all these influencers on TikTok or YouTube or on all the other countless social platforms. I…
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I have been unsure on how to continue writing when I hit a slump because the truth is, I still have too many thoughts that need to come out but I’m just unsure on how to verbalise them or no one to discuss them with… Which makes me sound lonely as fuck but I promise…
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I’m not sure what to write about today… I wanted to do a journal entry or focus on a topic. And I did – I wrote about being grown up/mature for your age but it just feels… Wrong. It feels wrong just to continue life when someone else’s stopped so suddenly. I know if I…
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Today I needed warmth, I needed to be held. I didn’t have anyone for that so I had to be that for myself. So I sat and reflected… I carry a lot quietly – nothing big, nothing hard but like a friend of mine says, everyone’s pain is maximal to them. I still show up,…
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I struggle to articulate my thoughts sometimes. Often. I can feel the words on my tongue or like a static in my chest,but I cant tune into the frequency. It’s frustrating,It spills out as tears,or as anger. 90% of the time it’s tears. Since I started journaling,letting the words fall out of me, I have…
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You watch me every morning and every evening. It’s our routine. Do you talk to your friend across the hall about me? Do you see what I see? Do you see how I avoid your gaze? I need you (both) though, I can’t avoid you (both) completely. But I find it hard to face you…
Becoming, Lucy 