Category: diary-entry
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I have been struggling with what I want to write about for weeks. I want to reflect on something. To write an essay. But nothing has felt inspiring. My brain hasn’t felt stimulated or much… Satisfaction? Satisfaction with any of my ideas. Then I realised I haven’t really felt much joy recently. I haven’t felt…
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Authors Note: I almost didn’t share this.It feels unfinished. Messy. A little too close to the surface. These are entries written across a few weeks. Captured as they happened, without much editing or distance. This space was never meant to be filled with polished thoughts or neat conclusions.It’s meant to hold moments like this –…
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The scariest thing about change is that it’s irreversible. You probably read that twice. Or maybe a handful of times. Or even just stared at it and spiralled, if you’re anything like me. My initial thought was ‘nothing is irreversible’ but… I couldn’t think of a single situation. Literally speaking, you can turn a light…
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Okay. I’m going to say it. The term grief is weird. An umbrella term to describe a complex mix of emotions that come with losing something or someone – because it’s not just sadness is it? It’s anger, laughter, emptiness, loneliness, happiness. And what’s even weirder? Grieving something you’ll never know could’ve been real. I’m…
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I’m currently going through a period of big change in my life and with it there’s a quiet hope – a hope for happiness. Which is weird. Because I don’t know who I am if I’m not sad and I’m not sure if I want to know the happy version of me. I would say…
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I climbed a mountain today.There was no view waiting for me.There was no relief when I reached the top.Instead I asked,What now? Now. I feel stuck here.There’s no way down.There’s only up.Still. I thought I reached the top.Turns out, there’s more. The air around me is suffocating.Maybe I could justJump.Off the edge. I can’t see…
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Today I did something scary. I admitted to a friend I wanted to be a writer. And here I am admitting it again. It’s a big day for becoming Lucy. When I admitted it, I was instantly reminded of something I saw the other day – if you want to be something, but already do…
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Lately I’ve been noticing my patterns and how I respond to certain things, specifically around being supported and being seen. I crave being seen. It has taken a lot of internal work to realise that is what I want, what I need. I find myself seeking it in people I love, in people I know…
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I burnt myself in the shower today.Not by accident.I got in and turned it up.Slowly.Gradually.It got to the perfect temperature.Then I asked what if I kept going,so I did.When the water touched me next,I couldn’t feel it.It was so hot, it was cold.Numb.My skin felt fine.But underneath the surface,it screamed.I wondered if it was a…
Becoming, Lucy 