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A realisation I had yesterday… I started at the frontI started strong,with hope,a steady pace. I walk the road with others,surrounded by familiar faces.Faces that are comforting,encouraging. The road is hard,I have fallen behind.I’m being held back,something is holding me back. Familiar faces pass me by,smiling, 1, 2, 3.My hands are getting full,my shoulders are…
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Hey you… It has been a while hasn’t it? Life has been… well life. Kids ill constantly, myself ill, travelling, work, Christmas events. It has been nonstop. But I haven’t come back to talk about the everyday things. I don’t really know what I’m here to talk about. I haven’t been feeling anything big or…
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I’m so exhausted. And I feel like that’s all I say at the moment. I don’t know. It’s so frustrating. I really feel like I have nothing to write about, and anything that does come out of me… God it just feels like a cliché or sounds just horrid. I want to be able to…
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I haven’t written for a while again. I’ve been ill (again, woohoo) and I’ve also been super busy. I’ve been reflecting on some of my writing though, and I can’t help but think I take a step forward, then two steps back. I seem to have these big revelations as I write, or seem to…
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The train was delayed. I’d grown tired of my book and even more tired of skipping songs that didn’t fit the moment. Then something outside the window caught my eye – I’m not even sure what, and suddenly my mind slipped into a spiral. The words that followed poured straight from my head, through the…
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I was thinking I’m not really in my feels lately, and that’s why I can’t write anything decent.But then I thought, what if I’m just happy? But I’m not even sure I know what happiness feels like.Which is such a weird thing to admit, isn’t it? Surely I should know what it feels like? When…
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I haven’t sat down to write in a few days. I’ve honestly been exhausted – on top of the toddler being ill, then of course getting ill myself and the last week of school before half term, it has been none stop. There were moments when I felt guilty for not finding time, for not…
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Hi me, I didn’t write at all yesterday… Truthfully I was asleep when I usually sit down to write. 4am wake up and work 6am – 5pm meant I was asleep by 6:30pm – I was exhausted. I’m not sure I had much to say yesterday anyway, or even today. Life is still… Life. Just…
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Need to write. Should write. No idea what to write. The truth is, I’m feeling disconnected from myself. I feel as though I’m watching my life, rather than live it at the moment. I’m just going through the motions. It’s such an odd feeling. I didn’t notice it until earlier – I lit a candle,…
Becoming, Lucy 