Category: diary-entry
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I’m currently going through a period of big change in my life and with it there’s a quiet hope – a hope for happiness. Which is weird. Because I don’t know who I am if I’m not sad and I’m not sure if I want to know the happy version of me. I would say…
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I climbed a mountain today.There was no view waiting for me.There was no relief when I reached the top.Instead I asked,What now? Now. I feel stuck here.There’s no way down.There’s only up.Still. I thought I reached the top.Turns out, there’s more. The air around me is suffocating.Maybe I could justJump.Off the edge. I can’t see…
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Today I did something scary. I admitted to a friend I wanted to be a writer. And here I am admitting it again. It’s a big day for becoming Lucy. When I admitted it, I was instantly reminded of something I saw the other day – if you want to be something, but already do…
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Lately I’ve been noticing my patterns and how I respond to certain things, specifically around being supported and being seen. I crave being seen. It has taken a lot of internal work to realise that is what I want, what I need. I find myself seeking it in people I love, in people I know…
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I burnt myself in the shower today.Not by accident.I got in and turned it up.Slowly.Gradually.It got to the perfect temperature.Then I asked what if I kept going,so I did.When the water touched me next,I couldn’t feel it.It was so hot, it was cold.Numb.My skin felt fine.But underneath the surface,it screamed.I wondered if it was a…
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I’ve been listening to a lot of NF recently… I know, that tells you a lot about where my head and heart is at. Not sure what I’m to say about that, or why I felt the need to share. I needed to write tonight – I have nothing to write about but everything is…
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A calling. It has been on my mind for a month now. I saw a video from one of my favourite creators, not knowing their calling,I realised I don’t know mine. I have never known what I was meant to do. Where I am supposed to go. Who I’m supposed to be. I feel so…
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I have rewritten this starting sentence about twenty times. I’m just not sure what I want to say and that summarises my week. The truth is I’ve been busy working on evenings, overwhelmed and exhausted from the day so I’ve been too disassociated and tired to really focus on writing at the times I usually…
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I’m just not sure today. I need to write because the thoughts feel like they are stacking up again (it has only been two days since I last wrote) but I’m not sure what I want to write about or what I need to write about. I feel like I’m waiting for something to happen…
