Category: diary-entry
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I couldn’t write last night. I didn’t feel as though I had anything to say which is funny because I spent the whole day with the giggles. I spent the whole day catching myself laughing over absolutely nothing which is such a contrast to how I’ve been recently with this ache, the pull in my…
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I just turned the music up in my headphones to avoid feeling, to stop thinking. Of course it didn’t work, the thoughts just got louder. They don’t want to be silenced now that I understand them. My head and heart are finally speaking the same language and they refuse to be silenced. This isn’t something…
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So this week I wrote about not really being ready for the end of the year or ready to close that chapter of my life yet – how I feel like I’m still searching for something else but having no idea what it is I’m searching for. I’m still clueless sadly. This won’t be a…
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I’m floating freeBut the waves keep trapping me Waves are supposed to move as oneBut the waves are fractured Waves surround meComing at me from all anglesCrashing into meWave after wave I can’t breatheBut I’m floating,Free I’m not going under I’m floating I’m breathing Free If I trust the water, I can just be I can…
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Recently I have been lost – feeling alone, numb, quiet, tired. Protecting myself (I think) from processing, from truly feeling my emotions. I’m not sure what gave me the push to process again or when and why I suddenly felt safe enough to do so but this week was that turning point. Thank god. I…
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A realisation I had yesterday… I started at the frontI started strong,with hope,a steady pace. I walk the road with others,surrounded by familiar faces.Faces that are comforting,encouraging. The road is hard,I have fallen behind.I’m being held back,something is holding me back. Familiar faces pass me by,smiling, 1, 2, 3.My hands are getting full,my shoulders are…
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Hey you… It has been a while hasn’t it? Life has been… well life. Kids ill constantly, myself ill, travelling, work, Christmas events. It has been nonstop. But I haven’t come back to talk about the everyday things. I don’t really know what I’m here to talk about. I haven’t been feeling anything big or…
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I’m so exhausted. And I feel like that’s all I say at the moment. I don’t know. It’s so frustrating. I really feel like I have nothing to write about, and anything that does come out of me… God it just feels like a cliché or sounds just horrid. I want to be able to…
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I haven’t written for a while again. I’ve been ill (again, woohoo) and I’ve also been super busy. I’ve been reflecting on some of my writing though, and I can’t help but think I take a step forward, then two steps back. I seem to have these big revelations as I write, or seem to…
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The train was delayed. I’d grown tired of my book and even more tired of skipping songs that didn’t fit the moment. Then something outside the window caught my eye – I’m not even sure what, and suddenly my mind slipped into a spiral. The words that followed poured straight from my head, through the…
