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  • I’m Done Disguising Fear As Responsibility

    Hi me, I didn’t write at all yesterday… Truthfully I was asleep when I usually sit down to write. 4am wake up and work 6am – 5pm meant I was asleep by 6:30pm –…

  • Going Through The Motions

    Need to write. Should write. No idea what to write. The truth is, I’m feeling disconnected from myself. I feel as though I’m watching my life, rather than live it at the moment. I’m…

  • Till The Sweat Turns To Blood

    Inspired by Sleep Token’s ‘Say That You Will’, I wanted to explore what it means to love someone so deeply that it bleeds you dry, literally and emotionally. I gave myself a challenge, to…

  • Ordinary

    Hi Me, Today was boring. You know I keep wanting to say my life is boring but it isn’t – it’s ordinary. I say boring because it’s not filled with loads of activities, news…

  • Hi, Me.

    I have been unsure on how to continue writing when I hit a slump because the truth is, I still have too many thoughts that need to come out but I’m just unsure on…

  • Continuing Isn’t Betrayal

    I’m not sure what to write about today… I wanted to do a journal entry or focus on a topic. And I did – I wrote about being grown up/mature for your age but…

  • Time Didn’t Pause

    I wasn’t going to post this because it’s so raw. I wrote this less than 12 hours after finding out he had passed. There’s no reflection here, no neat resolution. Just disbelief, love and…

  • Even In The Darkness, There Is Life

    I don’t even know how to start this entry. What a weird and horrible week. Was my mood dropping constantly last week just foreshadowing what was to come? I had to ‘force’ myself to…

  • The Trees Will Always Be Beautiful

    Grief has a strange way of softening the world. Everything looks the same, everything stays the same but it all feels wrapped in something heavier. A fog that makes you ache for warmth. I…