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  • The Trees Will Always Be Beautiful

    Grief has a strange way of softening the world. Everything looks the same, everything stays the same but it all feels wrapped in something heavier. A fog that makes you ache for warmth. I…

  • A Conversation With Death

    I wrote this in the first few hours after losing someone I loved deeply. A conversation with something I don’t understand but keep being forced to face. Death. You’re a cruel friend.  I’ve thought about…

  • Messy and Honest

    Today. Today has been weird. I want to say it has been hard but it hasn’t – it’s just hard right now. My cat has gone missing and I’m feeling guilty because I didn’t…

  • Grey

    Everything was grey today. The sky. The cars.Even my coffee looked grey. It tasted grey too, the barista forgot the caramel.  My tasks at work were grey. Too much paper. Today has felt uninspiring. I’ve poured a lot out…

  • Today I Needed Warmth

    Today I needed warmth, I needed to be held. I didn’t have anyone for that so I had to be that for myself. So I sat and reflected… I carry a lot quietly –…

  • Half Finished Note

    Tired Tired of pretending Tired of smiling Tired of being Tired of work Tired of hoping Tired of being present  So tired

  • When I Can’t Find The Words

    I struggle to articulate my thoughts sometimes. Often. I can feel the words on my tongue or like a static in my chest,but I cant tune into the frequency. It’s frustrating,It spills out as…

  • The Mirror

    You watch me every morning and every evening. It’s our routine. Do you talk to your friend across the hall about me? Do you see what I see? Do you see how I avoid…

  • The Joke’s On Me

    I’m laughing at myself. I started this blog so I had somewhere to write, somewhere to pour out my thoughts from my overthinking brain, and told myself it might make someone else feel less…