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  • Hi, Me.

    I have been unsure on how to continue writing when I hit a slump because the truth is, I still have too many thoughts that need to come out but I’m just unsure on…

  • Continuing Isn’t Betrayal

    I’m not sure what to write about today… I wanted to do a journal entry or focus on a topic. And I did – I wrote about being grown up/mature for your age but…

  • Time Didn’t Pause

    I wasn’t going to post this because it’s so raw. I wrote this less than 12 hours after finding out he had passed. There’s no reflection here, no neat resolution. Just disbelief, love and…

  • Even In The Darkness, There Is Life

    I don’t even know how to start this entry. What a weird and horrible week. Was my mood dropping constantly last week just foreshadowing what was to come? I had to ‘force’ myself to…

  • The Trees Will Always Be Beautiful

    Grief has a strange way of softening the world. Everything looks the same, everything stays the same but it all feels wrapped in something heavier. A fog that makes you ache for warmth. I…

  • A Conversation With Death

    I wrote this in the first few hours after losing someone I loved deeply. A conversation with something I don’t understand but keep being forced to face. Death. You’re a cruel friend.  I’ve thought about…

  • Messy and Honest

    Today. Today has been weird. I want to say it has been hard but it hasn’t – it’s just hard right now. My cat has gone missing and I’m feeling guilty because I didn’t…

  • Grey

    Everything was grey today. The sky. The cars.Even my coffee looked grey. It tasted grey too, the barista forgot the caramel.  My tasks at work were grey. Too much paper. Today has felt uninspiring. I’ve poured a lot out…

  • Today I Needed Warmth

    Today I needed warmth, I needed to be held. I didn’t have anyone for that so I had to be that for myself. So I sat and reflected… I carry a lot quietly –…